I've tried hard to escape the fact that I've missed you for years on now; its hard but real. I miss the moments when you would listen to my incessant request for you to just keep growing keep pushing up keep pushing out. There were moments when in the heat of it all you grew pale seem weary and often wilt beneath the scotch of the intense light rays. Still you remained steadfast and strong unwavering in your commitment to one day provide for me.
Growth for you was inevitable; a path that's truly your destiny but placed in my hands to nurture. Very often I experience the fortunate pleasure of your bright green smile and become slightly worried when you turn yellow or pale. I could feel your thirst and often feel an overwhelming sense of guilt when in my eager response to quench your desire for water, I do nothing but retard your own depth that growth that enables you to seek to search beyond your own immediate reach and comforts. I learn that in occasional denial I can observe your own God-ordained efforts to reach deep to stretch beyond your own limitations at attaining the quencher of your ever present thirst.
Everyday serves as a new dawn a new birth; the sun cascades across the mountainside and peers its intensity through the natural prisms created by the spaces among the many obstacles in its rays' path. But its brightness was too great to have deprived you of your daily dose your quota of ultra violet beams....a necessary ingredient to add the luster that shine on your delicate and well defined surfaces. I could see you twist sometimes stretch upwards to be there for more to capture what is out of reach without a moment's notice.
I admire what you have been to me all these years; I cherish the inner calm and peace that the sight of you evokes in my so often disturbed being, yes I savor the sight that seem to solidify that strengthening sentimental connection that sweet anticipating state of just staying enchanted. I dread the day when we must face transformation; yes I will look each day and enjoy the beauty of you as your green gives way to the kaleidoscope of energizing and enticing colors a sign of your mineral-rich impregnation and engagement that is your very own nature your very own destiny your purpose my nourishment. As I behold such beauty I cannot escape the dread that this may just be a short-live moment for indeed change will be daunting and it will beg its entrance and its welcome will never be a subject for reconsideration..for it is indeed your destiny:
To entice my eyes and allow me to enjoy the beauty of your own self;
To allow me full permission not as a reward for any nurturing but because that's what's God's design on you is about;
To become part of me and I feed now not only on your beauty held out in my hands, but more so as I partake and drink deep into your offering of your very self;
And I will be alive, I will live to see another day because of you being you for me and after the end of your visible journey nears;
I am move to say you are truly nourishing because now you have become a real part of me!
Dedicated to my two lovely Cabbages and ever faithful Tomato!
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